Sometime back in the 1990’s, I had this ‘awakening’, for want of a better word. A kind of life changing, mind flash…..or to put it another way……I woke up and discovered that there was no ‘God’.
It felt like an instantaneous revelation, but in reality, it was no more than a gradual swing in the direction of a non believer. I had had doubts of that nature for some time, but part of me just wanted to keep on believing, out of comfort I guess.

This particular day, a date I can’t remember, despite its importance, was to be the first day in many years that I stopped praying. That was its significance, for me, a believer since my early childhood, the day I stopped praying.

A good few years have passed since then, many has been the time; I have debated with Christian friends and family, the perceived error of their ways. To me, I find their belief to be preposterous, how a grown adult can still believe in a naive institution, based on fairy tales and superstition, is way beyond my comprehension.
To me, it seems so obvious that we are just another form of life on this planet, the only difference we have to other creatures, is our ability to think, and therefore reason. And armed with the ability to reason, logic dictates that a God is an absurd idea!

So why do I feel like there is now something missing in my life. I mean that!
I really miss the comfort and peaceful state of mind that I felt when I prayed. An inner peace, contentment with my lot…well not completely, but I am sure you know what I mean.
Over recent years, as time has gently slid by, that feeling has grown to the point where it is often on my mind. I now find myself in a dilemma as to how to deal with it.
The obvious, and yet so wrong, conclusion to draw, is that I should return to the path previously trod. Become a born again Christian, I don’t mean in the megalomaniac way chosen by George W Bush, (idiot), pardon my feelings, but in a conventional sense, just glide slowly into the pews once more, as if I never left.

But I can’t do that, you see, there is no God, that’s the whole point of the exercise. There is ‘No God’ I can’t emphasize that enough! No god, doesn’t exist, never has, neither is there a Thor, a Woden or a Venus. They have all been made up; they have served their purpose in controlling weak minded individuals from darker times past, although they do still exist in the minds of some, and in a few cases, I can see why.

Having said that, there are of course, the many fanatics out there, who will never have the free will to understand this concept……you know who you are, you’re the ones who feel hurt or angry at reading this article.

I can feel empathy towards those individuals who have had their doubts, but have not acted upon them; actually admitting to yourself that you no longer believe is quiet hard, having the courage to stand up and shout it from the rooftops, is practically unheard of, with the exception of Richard Dawkins and a few others. And Richard Dawkins is the epitome of the Devil incarnate to some.
So where to go, and what to do, to surmount this problem!

Well that’s where I am now; I need to regain that comfort and peace of mind I used to take so much for granted.
There are alternative forms of religion, but at the end of the day, they are all much of a muchness………. Did you ever see… a drawing of a muchness? (Alice’s, Adventures in Wonderland).

I find that perhaps there is an answer in the old ways of religion; I speak of a time when early humans were in awe of the World, its power and magnitude. They worshiped the Sun, the Moon, the Oceans and the land. Maybe, just maybe, they were half way there!
Nature, the planet, our World…Welcome to my World..Ha!..Ha! Now there’s a thought, why not replace the old god with an (almost) real one. Planet Earth gives us the air we breathe, the food we eat and the soil we grow our crops in. So why not worship her…see, we even know what sex she is!

This is my dilemma, and one I wish to share with my fellow human beings, to see if we cannot, together, solve this small paradox.

PS. I already consider myself a Humanist…..Now I need to regain the peace of mind that prayer gave me……Who can I pray to, and still feel good!

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